Moving On!!!

I've move on,
I've always been the fool.
To dare trust ones in an instance,
And plant my heart in.
I thought I would feel the pain once again,
But I smiled with relief.
I've finally got myself,
detach from him.
Boy was I glee.
I guess I'm too hurt to feel the pain more,
As the pain had numbed me deep.

 Contradiction after contradicting, what am I actually feeling?

All that I'm sure of is I'm confuse.