yesterday i have been cleaning up my stuff

and i found the box

which i had put my 6year collection

of campfire/camp etc booklet

and it made my heart hurt

i feel like throwing them away

as it remind me of all the past contribution i have made to guide

and all i got is those bloody attitude from some of my junior and teacher

on the friday when i went for guide

i complaint that it unfair my attendace was mark zero

as i did not turn up as no one told me about it

then amanda say why didnt you ask.... etc

wtf she was the one who was suppose to tell me that there is guide and she forgoten

and i have to suffer my cca grade because of her

well nvm that as cca point mean nothing to me

seriously

as i dont plan even plan to go jc

so you stupid bloody teacher think you can treaten me wif cca point

i got 5word for you

not in a billion year

and i found out something pathetic when i went for the cca

the sec2, even worst the senior cant even tied a simple lash like square lash wth

i seriously gave up on this bloody cca which i use to love

b4 this bloody teacher took over

well and i been helping the guide to do so much stuff for the past 6yr

and i din expect much from it but seriously i am dissapointed

from when i am sec1 a very cool, well train, well organise guide to today [6yr later] a bloody full of shit cca i am dissapointed

and i think all of this is due to the bloody teacher fault for being blind and bias...

well this shall be a good lesson to me in future some how

actualy i regrated and wonder why

when i was promoted from sec2nt to sec2na

why didnt i quit?

i guess i thought there is still some hope for guide etc back then

and i got a principle that once i join something i will nvr quit no matter how sucky the thing is

ok i am bloody stress out due to i have 4goten alot of stuff i had learn last year [poa + Amath]

and my o-lvl math result coming out

haix i wish this night mare would end asap